6 Weeks Today Baby

WOW, 6 weeks today!! :-)
It's amazing how time goes by so quickly but drags at the same time. I am feeling less stressed of late, mainly thanks to my lovely husband. I've tried to tell him how I'm worried we'll lose the baby etc and he keeps saying 'well eat healthy and exercise and stress less & the rest is out of our hands'. And I guess I do need to remember that and just enjoy one day at a time.

Morning sickness is rearing it's ugly head, but I really don't mind. It's just a little reminder that I have a gorgeous little bubba growing inside me. I went to the GP yesterday and got referrals for blood tests and also a dating scan (at 11 weeks, which seems really late to me, considering you normally have a scan at 12 weeks???). I was going to get my blood tests done yesterday but didn't feel like being sucked dry by the pathology vampires so thought I'd go today. Only problem is I feel worse today HAHA. So think I'll just leave the bloods until my days off next week. Oh well looks like I'll be watching the OC today instead of running errands.

The in-laws are flying down from QLD tomorrow and it's going to take all our strength not to tell them we're pregnant (even though they'll probably guess as I won't be drinking wine). The GP said it's probably a bit early and I agree.
Not sure DH feels the same way but I said if anything were to happen and we lost the baby I just dont want them asking all the time how we feel, when it would be pretty obvious how we'd feel. We're just thinking positive and there isn't much more we can do. I keep telling baby I can't wait to meet them in July.

On a totally different note I nearly spewed this week when I was taking a nasal pack out of someone nose (all covered in blood and snot) so I had to tell the nurse I was working with that I just couldn't finish the dressing as I am pregnant and about to puke. WELL this lovely nurse is from the casual pool so totally won't tell anyone that I'm pregnant. And I left work the other day about 20 minutes early as I was finished all my work. Well this lovely nurse was back the next day & she said as I was leaving the other day two permenant nurses on my ward said to each other 'ooooooooo she's getting a bit of a tummy, do you think she's pregnant??!'

AH OH I'm only 6 weeks pregnant, lets hope my belly can hide until the 13 week mark. Either that or baby loves attention and wants everyone to know that I'm pregnant :-)

OH......MY.......GOODNESS!!!

It seems that we've finally done it. We are actually pregnant *insert scream here*
After my pity party post on October 16th it seems like the universe has listened and has given us our own little miracle to nourish and cherish.

We are so super excited (Darling husband more worried and anxious than excited.) I got home from work yesterday and still no AF so I thought I'd test (as I was sick of wasting pantyliners) and I saw those pretty pink lines. Im in such shock. We only BD'd once this cycle as I was away, and I was sure I was just wasting my last First Response test. But the 2nd line came up in less than 2 minutes!!

I rushed out yesterday and bought a little jump suit that says mummy + daddy = me.... and put the test in with it and wrapped it up in army wrapping paper!!! (The only wrapping paper we have in the whole house) LOL.
 
So I told DH last night and he was the typical boy, he just kept saying 'are you sure'! And to make it worse the POAS kinda fell inside the wrapping paper so it just looked like i'd given him some random baby suit LOL. I had to say.... ah there's more in there. I think it'll take him sometime to adjust to the whole idea (not being the most flexible person when it comes to change) But after I told him i was pregnant I went to get up and make a cup of tea and he said 'no i'll do that, you're in no state to be getting up ' And he's rubbing my belly and calling me mum so I think he's excited but worried at the same time.


Well I thought I'd let you know the symptoms I've had:

Increased CM. It actually made me wonder whether I'd actually O'd yet or not

REALLY sore nipples. I have a jumper on now and no bra because it's just killing me

And some nausea. I could only eat half my breakfast this morning.

And that's it. I still can't believe it. Im totally petrified and freaking out. But I'm sending positives vibes into the universe and praying that this little bundle will stick!!

I can't get in to see my GP until Wednesday, but Im not too worried. The 2nd line came up super dooper fast so Im pretty sure Im pregnant. Just need to get bloods etc taken.

AHHHHHHH I'm going to be a mummy in July 2010!!! SO SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!

It's Been a While

So it's been a while since I sat and did some blogging and I'm sad to say that there really hasn't been that much happening in my life.

I have just gotten back from a week in Toowoomba to visit the fam and let's just say it was about as fun as watching paint dry. I have two younger sisters who I have decided to distance myself from as they are just so selfish and self centered and dare I say it, ugly people. Now, don't get me wrong I love them. I just don't like them. And until they are nicer people I really don't want them in my life. Harsh? Perhaps. But after putting up with this for the last 3 years or so I think I've earnt the right to step back from them and concentrate on my life with my darling husband.

Now, on to the baby front. Or lack thereof to be precise. Absoluetely nothing is happening. Zilch, nadda, zip. It's bitterly disappointing not to be pregnant. I'm pretty certain I "o"ed whilst I was in QLD (away from darling husband) so I'm 99% certain we won't be seeing that BFP this cycle. Which means we'll be on to cycle six. I know I keep saying this but I honestly didn't think it would take this long for us to fall pregnant.

Darling husband's parents are coming down for a visit in mid November and I always imagined that we would be about 12 weeks pregnant and be able to share the joy and happiness with them in person.
Instead, I'm sitting here sad and disappointed that God hasn't blessed us with our own bubba yet. I know it can take up to 12 months for healthy couples to fall pregnant BLAH BLAH BLAH. It still hurts that we aren't pregnant. It still brings tears to my eyes when I see all the gorgeous pregnant ladies with their swelling bellies walking around the city.

I just don't know what to do, think or say.... Where to from here??

My Morning in Heaven

I've just had the most wonderful morning in heaven (aka the lifeline bookfest). I had such a lovely time just walking around and getting some cheap books and supporting a good cause at the same time. Win Win situation right?!.

I wasn't overly smart though and only took in one 'green' bag, so I had to buy a calico bag before my arms dropped off .Note to self 20 books in a calico bag hurts one's shoulder. I think next year I might invest in a 'nanna-push-a-long' trolley so I can drag my books around, not cart them around on my shoulders.

It was so lovely seeing people of all age and race walking along the tables and looking for a good book to read. It made me smile when I saw little kids with books in their arms, ready to take them home and cherish them forever. I'm so pleased that children still love reading and aren't just interested in the television, or computer.

So what did I purchase?? Well I bought:

• 9 of the 'Dr Scarpetta books' (To complete my series) - Patricia Cornwell
• Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
• Harvesting the Heart - Jodi Picoult
• The Notebook - Nicholas Sparks
• The Wedding - Nicholas Sparks
• PS, I Love You - Cecilia Ahern
• Sundowners - Lesley Lokko
• A Walk to Remember - Nicholas Sparks
• The Choice - Nicholas Sparks
• The Other Boleyn Girl - Philippa Gregory
• The Naked Husband - Mark D'Arbanville
• The Jane Austen Book Club - Karen Joy Fowler

Now despite what my husband might say, 20 odd books is not unreasonable. Especially when I've wanted all these books for forever. AND all 20 books only cost me $95. Bargain I say. There's no way you could buy 20 books in a retail store for that price.

Aaahhh bliss! Now I just need to find room on my bookcase for the new additions.

Home Again Home Again Jiggety Jig

Well we are home from our wonderful trip to New Zealand and I must say, that is one beautiful country. We drove around the south island and it was just spectacular. It wasn't too cold, it was green, there was still snow on the mountains. It was just super to get away to a beautiful place, even for just 2 weeks.

The start to the holiday didn't go so well as the airline we flew with had some issues with their electronic check in machine thingo... so the air hostess's were counting everyone on the plane, then recounting, then recounting, then counting some more. We ended up being delayed by two hours. Definetly not the best start to the holiday. That coupled with the fact that poor husband was sitting RIGHT near the toilet the entire flight.... well let's just say he wasn't a happy chappy when we landed in Christchurch.

We didn't do any of the adventure type thrill seeking tours while we were there. We did a glacier landing (so beautiful) a lake cruise at Franz Josef, the gondola tour at Queenstown, the Milford Sound cruise and so much more.
We actually pre booked and paid for everything before we left Australia and the night before the Milford sound cruise husband and I both got food poisoning (YUCK) and we so weren't in the mood to drive two hours on an awful snow covered road. But because we had already paid for it we didn't want to miss out. But let's just say 90 minutes on a cruise boat while battling food poisoning probably isn't the best idea. The boat took us out to the Tasman sea and wholey moley I nearly puked again it was so damn choppy!!!

But we're home safe and warm (well kind of, the weather in Canberra is pretty awful today) and have most definetly caught the travel bug. Husband is putting his CV on some European job sites and we're hoping that we will be able to work and travel around Europe next year some time. And maybe even fit in a trip to Japan.

On the TTC front all is not going so well. The not temping thing is doing my head in and we'll most definetly go back to temping next cycle. I just hate not knowing where about's I'm up to in the cycle. We definetly didn't BD at the right times so I think we won't see that BFP this cycle. Oh well I guess it's not over until the red witch arrives, but I definetly don't have high hopes this cycle.
Well off to buy my sister a pressie for her birthday. Stay warm!!

Blog This Challenge

If you could choose a day, a week, a moment in time to re-live - what would it be?

Just a quick one from me as I should really be tidying the house before we drive to Sydney.
I just read Zoey's response to this week's blog this challenge and it got me thinking... what moment would I relive?

Well of course my wedding day was fantastic & such a beautiful day in my life. The matchbox twenty concert I went to was pretty frickin' awesome as well.... but the one moment I would like to relive would probably be the last time I saw my Nan.

Nan passed away when I was just 8, and I didn't know it at the time that she was dying of Leukemia. I remember driving to her house, a 4 hour drive from where I grew up. I remember my aunt filming me just sitting on Nan's lap and I remember the card game 'clocks' that my Nan taught me to play.

We had a family reunion, and Nan let me hammer a hole in a bottle of softdrink and I remember walking around the yard on the night of the reunion just swigging out of my bottle. My cousin was there too and I remember we played that 'clappy' game, you know.... 'you're mother, my mother lived down the street, 18 19 Marble Street....'

I remember singing songs with my sister as we sat on the stairs that lead to her front door. I remember when it was time to say goodbye I bawled my eyes out because I didn't want to leave Nan. Like I said, I didn't know it at the time that it would be the last time I would see her. But a part of me thinks that perhaps my 8 year old self knew something wasn't quite right and didn;t want the moment to end.

So why do I want to relive this particular moment,out of all the moment's in my life? Because Nan truly was the most beautiful wonderful person in my life. I would love to go back there and hug her one last time. To take in her smell and to get one last photo of us together.
I miss my Nan so much & would love to see her again, even for just one day.

Here is the beautiful song 'Nan' by Robbie William's that sums up how I feel about my Nan.



Well I'm outta here for two weeks. Take care & stay safe

I've Been Living Under a Rock

Honestly, I have. I've been so busy with work and everyday life stuff that I didn't realise that Mr Paul Dempsey from Something For Kate has released a solo album entitled 'Everything is True'
I LOVE LOVE LOVE his voice and will rush out tomorrow to buy the album just in time to load it onto my ipod for the trip.... but incase you've never heard of said musical genius I'll leave you with this clip...



Now to hope and pray he makes his way down to Canberra on his tour.... fingers crossed :)