Monday, October 17, 2011

What have we got here?

Baby "Yufi" 12 weeks and 2 days old.
Just chillaxing while sucking his/her thumb.

I'm here and still alive. I have been struggling a lot lately with depression and anxiety and general 'feel like shit'-ness.

I've been worried a lot about this baby, how I'll cope with two when we're so far away from family, how will we fit in our tiny townhouse, how I wish I worked more (There I go, I said it out 'loud') etc etc.

I went to my GP and spoke about going on a low dose antidepressant (yep, I feel guilty about that too).
At this stage I'm going to see a psychologist and try some cognitive behaviour therapy and see if I can manage with just that.

The husband and I have also had some long (and heated) discussions about moving back 'home'. He totally hates the idea (I don't think hate is a strong enough word) so we're thinking maybe Brissy/Sunshine Coast/Gold Coast might be the answer. Close to family, well 2 hours away which is closer than 20+ hours away.

I'm hoping we can find some solutions to my current issues, but in the meantime I guess I'll just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming .......


Amy said...

For completely selfish reasons- yes! Move to Brisbane! We can be best friends :)

I spent most of my pregnancy with #2 terrified. I just couldn't see how I would cope.

It's been easier that I thought it would be. And some days have sucked, but on those days we just batten down the hatches, hide inside the house, and make liberal use of the Toy Story trilogy.

You are growing one gorgeous little baby there!

Tamsyn said...

Mummy guilt is the worst isn't it? Don't ever feel guilty about needing to take of yourself though. If you're not ok, it's hard to take care of your family xx

I vote Brisbane too. Best city around I reckon :)

MultipleMum said...

I hope things are going okay? Haven't heard from you in a long time!?! have you moved? x