A Mumma doubts herself

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Malachi has really slimmed down lately. He was 3.4kgs at birth and doubled his birth weight by 3 months.

Now he's almost 10 months and just under 9kgs (rough guess-timate I just put him on our crappy bathroom scales). I think he looks healthy but Hubby's making me doubt myself. He thinks he's really ...slim. Slim arms, skinny legs, little belly.

Malachi has 3 breastfeeds during the day and the last milk feed at night I've either been giving him breastmilk and then a formula top up, or just formula.

Last night I just gave him formula after the little pain bit me. He had dinner at 5pm, milk at 7pm and he only drank 100mls (he last had milk at 1pm). I know I cant force feed it down his throat, and he's weeing and pooing okay just what you wanted to hear right.

Hubby is somewhat suggesting that my breastmilk is dodgy and we should just switch to full time formula but I know that if I 'gave up' now while I still have milk available I would feel guilty.

GAH don't know what to do. Are we destined as parent's to always second guess and judge ourselves? I don't know what the 'right' thing to do is.

Have you had a milky's dilemma? Any advice to offer?

Monkey see, monkey do

With Easter just around the corner I've been racking my brains trying to find something for the wee little man. Being not quite 10 months old I was certain I wasn't going to be buying him chocolate, might leave that until next year.

I considered one of those little bowl, spoon, cup type sets (there's a Thomas, a Peter Rabbit, and a few other ones) but he already received a Toy Story one at Christmas.

Then I stumbled across this little cutie and knew I'd found Master M's easter gift. Meet Cadbury:

Isn't he the cutest little guy you've ever seen!? I'm thinking he and Master M will be great friends.

What are you getting your little one for Easter?

Do you do presents for Easter or stick with chocolate?

It's Britney Bitch

Yep, that's right I'm going to admit on this here little old blog that I'm loving Britney.

I bought her album the other day at JB and having been bopping away and singing out of tune ever since.

I love that her songs are catchy and nothing-ey. Just what I need to take my mind off things.

ENJOY!!

 

Bye bye money, hello pain.

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You may remember I have a MASSIVE fear of the dentist.

Well heart racing and stomach churning I went there yesterday. First time in way too many years. And oh the smell. You know what I'm talking about right? I told him it smelt like a dental surgery. He must be immune to it after all these years as he didn't agree that his practice has a smell.

When I was trying to find a dentist, I turned to my friend, google. This dentist was highly recommended. Great skills, friendly, honest, keen on sedation and gentle.

Well google was right. He was super friendly. He asked why I had such a fear of the dentist. I couldn't really answer him. I think it's the great big fear of the unknown.

You see growing up in a single parent household we never went to the dentist. Well except when they came to our school and let's be honest they are not friendly, or gentle so maybe that's why I hate the dentist so much.

He didn't scold me for not going for years which a bitch dentist did two years ago! No wonder I never went back for that filling mean lady.

He found out I'm a registered nurse. He asked whether I worked with his golfing buddies, two doctors at the hospital I work at. Turns out I do. I was hoping this would mean a discount.... ah no! Someone has to fund his golf trips after all.

So what does not going to the dentist your whole life mean? Seven fillings, a crown, a splint for night time and the possible removal of wisdom teeth.

HOLY FECKING HELL!!!

Bye bye money, hello pain!

I'm going back next week to hand over $410 have two fillings done. I'm slowly working my way up to the crown. Totally not convinced about the wisdom teeth though. I have never had a general anaesthetic before and I have nursed people who've had their wisdom teeth out. It's not a pretty picture.

Lucky we have been putting money into a health account for the last few years to cover some of the costs of the dental work. We don't have health insurance, though it is on the list of things to look at.

But it got me thinking last night, no wonder lower income households don't go to the dentist. It is expensive, and you don't get anything back from medicare.

I'm really grateful that I have no permanent effects from putting off the dentist for so long. I have no pain, my teeth nerves are all okay (apparently decay can go down to the nerve!) and I get to keep most of my teeth bar the damn wisdom teeth!

I am certain though that my kiddies will go to the dentist often. I really do think if I had of gone regularly I wouldn't be in this position today.

Do you visit the dentist often? How do your children handle the dentist?