Bye bye money, hello pain.

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You may remember I have a MASSIVE fear of the dentist.

Well heart racing and stomach churning I went there yesterday. First time in way too many years. And oh the smell. You know what I'm talking about right? I told him it smelt like a dental surgery. He must be immune to it after all these years as he didn't agree that his practice has a smell.

When I was trying to find a dentist, I turned to my friend, google. This dentist was highly recommended. Great skills, friendly, honest, keen on sedation and gentle.

Well google was right. He was super friendly. He asked why I had such a fear of the dentist. I couldn't really answer him. I think it's the great big fear of the unknown.

You see growing up in a single parent household we never went to the dentist. Well except when they came to our school and let's be honest they are not friendly, or gentle so maybe that's why I hate the dentist so much.

He didn't scold me for not going for years which a bitch dentist did two years ago! No wonder I never went back for that filling mean lady.

He found out I'm a registered nurse. He asked whether I worked with his golfing buddies, two doctors at the hospital I work at. Turns out I do. I was hoping this would mean a discount.... ah no! Someone has to fund his golf trips after all.

So what does not going to the dentist your whole life mean? Seven fillings, a crown, a splint for night time and the possible removal of wisdom teeth.

HOLY FECKING HELL!!!

Bye bye money, hello pain!

I'm going back next week to hand over $410 have two fillings done. I'm slowly working my way up to the crown. Totally not convinced about the wisdom teeth though. I have never had a general anaesthetic before and I have nursed people who've had their wisdom teeth out. It's not a pretty picture.

Lucky we have been putting money into a health account for the last few years to cover some of the costs of the dental work. We don't have health insurance, though it is on the list of things to look at.

But it got me thinking last night, no wonder lower income households don't go to the dentist. It is expensive, and you don't get anything back from medicare.

I'm really grateful that I have no permanent effects from putting off the dentist for so long. I have no pain, my teeth nerves are all okay (apparently decay can go down to the nerve!) and I get to keep most of my teeth bar the damn wisdom teeth!

I am certain though that my kiddies will go to the dentist often. I really do think if I had of gone regularly I wouldn't be in this position today.

Do you visit the dentist often? How do your children handle the dentist?

All is Well

Boobie ultrasound went well. They couldn't find anything nasty which is great. So happy. The guy doing it didn't say a word in the beginning so of course I was freaking out! Doesn't explain the massive pulling I get from under my arm. Maybe I'm just super sensitive and can feel the milk let down or something?? Who knows! The guy also asked if I'd like a biopsy done if it looked normal. Yeah Buddy, shove a big needle in my boob for the hell of it. Of course I declined!!

Also had mother's group Tuesday morning which went well. Sucks being somewhere at 930am though!! Around 75% of the Mum's there had an emergency C Sections!!! Crazy!!! All the bub's were super cute and around the same age which is good. One lady even had twins. Of course my little man just snobbed all the babies. I put him down on the rug on the floor and another Mumma put her daughter right next to Malachi. He just ignored her and continued on with sucking his fist.

I am going out tomorrow night (sans baby) to see Melissa Ohden speak. Melissa is the survivor of a failed saline infusion abortion at approximately six months gestation. If you want to hear more about Melissa's story, this is the youtube video.

Positive Vibes

Hello lovely followers. I need some positive vibes and thoughts sent my way. Pretty please!? I have a lump in my boob which I assumed since I was breastfeeding was just mastitis. I took two courses of antibiotics and the lump is still there. It hurts like crazy when the little guy feeds off that side and kind of pulls from under my underarm (weird I know). So I'm off Monday to have an ultrasound done and possibly a biopsy if needed. I am so scared and stressed and thinking it might be cancer :-( I am hoping like mad it's just some crazy hormonal thing but my mind keeps thinking the worst.

So pretty pretty please pray for me. Send some loving positive thoughts my way

When it rains, it pours

For most of my pregnancy (except the first 14 weeks when I was spewing and spewing and spewing and lost 7kgs) I have felt great. Granted, I never really did get that 2nd trimester 'energy kick' I have heard so much about, but I have been loving my body and loving growing this little person.

But over the last week or so my body has been SCREAMING at me to slow down. It all began last Sunday when I ended up on the maternity ward. I thought about what I could do to ease the stress and decided to change my 12 hour shifts back to 8 hour shifts for the rest of my roster.

Then I found out last Tuesday that the left side of my pubic bone is sitting higher than my right so the physio pulled it and tried to drag it back to the same height as the right side. He tried 3 times and it's still out of wack. He's a good looking physio that used to work on my ward!!! I was so embarrased. I had on a hospital gown and just my knickers. At least I'm getting used to not having any dignity now. Preparing me for the embarassment that is labour. I was due to go back for more torture session today but I still have a cold and didn't really want to infect people with my germs so have had to reschedule.

I Went to my GP yesterday as I woke up with an awful pain in my right calf. Now I have had leg cramps before and have just massaged the spot and they normally go away. Well not this time. This one has decided to stick around. Just to be on the safe side I am off to have an expensive ultrasound of my leg this afternoon.

And if that wasn't enough my blood pressure is high and the doctor is worried about pre eclampsia. Only good thing is there was no protein in my urine, which is a good sign. Will just check my BP weekly until I see the midwife and see what they want to do in a couple of weeks. I have my fingers crossed that the pain in my calf turns out to be an extremely nasty cramp and that once I go on maternity leave (on the 21st May WOO HOO) my blood pressure returns to normal.

In other news our weekend was great. It was nice seeing the inlaws again and go out for a special dinner. They were super excited to see me pregnant and got to feel the baby move around a bit which was special. I was very sad to see them go yesterday. Makes me realise how lonely I am down here sometimes, with only DH and a few friends. Hopefully in a few years time we can move back to QLD and be a little bit closer to them. I think it's important for bub's to know his grandparents.

Well better go shave my legs for my ultrasound. Don't want to shock the sonographer with my gross hairy legs!

31 Week Bump